"I WANTED TO CRY HARN\D AND SOBS SO DEEPLY BUT THERE WHERE NO TEARS FELL"

The whole day I have a wonderful laughing day until I came home and found out that I can't go inside the house for the upper lock was locked! and so, i use my mind and go to the neighbor accross the street and asked if I could use her phone to call my husband and check where did he go?! so the lady was so kind and she let me used her phone but I did messed up with the number and I couldn't remember my parents in law's phone! the first thing that came into my mind before asking my neighbor using her phone, was to just sit @ the bench and wait till my husband will go home from where he was which I don't have any Idea?! but it is too cold to sit and stay outside, so I did what is the right thing that my mind and heart can think right!

so go on with this, the lady help me out and get his phone directory and find my parents in law's phone number and there I did talk to my parents in law and I said, ok, I will come there in a few mins, i will just walk(it is not that really far to walk), but the lady was so kindest that she gave me a ride! I really had a good day today until I arrived my parents in law house and my father in law wasn't around and it was just my mother in law was there, and there started my day screwed up! my mother inlaw starts to interugates me this and that about the relationship with his son and even my sex life with his son she bought it up!

I did answered her honestly all her queries.. and what upsets me is that why on the freaking earth does my husband's parents interferes with my relationships with thier son and especially our sex life?!

and when i get home tonight, after staying dinner there with my husband that followed me, i checked my email and i saw an email from my dad.. blah blah blah was the content! and it upsets me more! I wanted to cry but my eyes were dried up and no tears fell down on my checks, i guess my eyes are too tired to cry now!! i wanted to sob so deeply but I couldn't bring myself either!! I am in turmoil!!! dang it!!