WHAT IS REALLY MY PURPOSE HERE ON EARTH?

WHAT IS REALLY MY PURPOSE HERE ON EARTH?...

This Question has been bugging me for FEW DAYS now.. It drepresses me to think of it though I tried not to but I just can't help it...

so WHAT IS REALLY MY PURPOSE HERE ON EARTH??? really, what is it?!

I am 29 years 6 months and 16days to be EXACT here on earth...

and today, I feel it more sad and depress... and this questions really boils me more today so.. I a writing this blogs hoping to help me lighten up my emotions...

I was really thinking do I really have a PURPOSE here on earth?!

and what is it?

there are few things comes into my MIND..

LIVE - EAT - DIE or the most reasonable reason I can think of is to MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN SOMEONE's LIFE or BRINGS JOY TO SOMEONE'S LIFE! Which of which really?!!

I don't know if I did bring JOY to someone's life or not nor make a difference??...

All I can see since I gained knowledge is TO LIVE - EAT AND DIE - that is the only reason I can see for myself now...

When I saw my friends pics last christmas and new year - i feel more depressed and useless...

they were so happy for they have a healthy lives and a real purpose while me? nothing..

IF ONLY I DON'T HAVE A JOB? A JOB THAT KEEPS ME GOING AND GIVES ME HOPE FOR SOMETHING.. i prolly be gone before... huh?!

OH DON'T LET ME FORGET there is other purpose for a human being here on EARTH...

it is to LOVE AND BE LOVED..

BUT NONE OF THESE i POSES.. so what is gonna be?!