"10TH DAY OF 2010.. CLOCKS TICKING SO FAST"

CLOCKS TICKING SO FAST... why?!

for a reason that sooner i will face my demons..

few months from now, my working permit will gonna expires and it means "END OF MY LIFE".. clocks ticking so fast and I am tormented and scared and confused!!

I felt that I am dying and I am really dying in other ways..

I can't go back, I don't have life over my country now I do have my life here..

when my working permit expires - am doomed! I can't stay here nor can't work and it is my final days - i felt that way now.. I know there gotta a way but i am confused what to do?!

I have options but I am not sure if I have to do it or not?!

I have to wait for my immigration attorney and If I do? what will happen? does it will do me good at all?

I know she is busy working with my case and she is also aware of my situation...

but GOD pls, lead me the right path.. I know all things happend for a reason...

before, living and going here in US was just a dream and thoughts never did I imagine that it will come true and it was your plan, your will.. I am offering this to you, pls help me face my demons...

clocks ticking so fast and my final days will come and I will be lost forever!!!! ugh!!!

"BEEPING DAY - WHAT A DAY"

Today, i woke up same as usual and left for work..


I feel much better today than yesterday..


but while I was on my way to work riding my bike - i felt anger - anger for myself! I even murmured a lil bit loud that "I am so mad @ myself" and I am uncertain what is the reason.. it is @ the back of my head what is the reason...huh?!


on the raod, I across two morning bikers and it was the very first time that it happend - encounter a biker on cold weather and I don't know what is there purpose but it must be something and mine was clear - riding my bike to work...


those two that I came across both greeted me and I greeted back with a wave.. and there it made me less worried before I reach work..




Arrived at work the usual time and take a rest at break room and after 30mins time to clock in and so I did..


I grab the film strip at cooler and starts my morning routine.. it took me almost halfa day to done it for i was caught up with pending orders and machine problems plus assisting customers that sometimes stupido!! pardon me but it is just the way they are no matter how i tried my best to help and explain to them this and that but good thing, i do have patience!! lolz..


I call this day at work a "BEEPING DAY".. why? for a reason that the machine keeps beeping on me from time to time and i didn't mind - it was fun!


i was able to fix the problem by myself and i feel good at it though my patience almost worns out.. i just started my shift and things weren't working right but in my mind - i was thinking i must make this right and so I did!!


I tried to make things clear and clean before I left the Lab and so I did grab a break after all is clear and clean and I spent my break time skeching! lolz.. it was fun and i draw my manager's face - hahah...


then store got busy and i was caught up with paper jam but I have to run to help upfront and then it is done - run back to the Lab and continue what I was left behind..


time swing by so fast that I didn't even notice that it is time for me to leave but I was caught up in the middle of transaction and I just can't leave just that so I stay and settle things up and run back again t the lab to finish what I was left behind again..


it was 36 till 4pm that I clocked out and the clocks scolded me for punching out late...


and few minutes later, I was on my way to home and the sun is trying to come out and i felt bad that i don't have camera for the clouds are so beautiful - looks likes a huge ocean tidal wave.. 4:11pm, i arrived home and cook rice and rest...


that is how my day went through @ work...

"EN LA CAMA"

today, after dinner... I decided to check netflix for a movie that i could burn my eyebrows..

and so i did found one.. it is not that very interesting but I did learned something..

i watch and i fall asleep and woke up after taking a nap and continue watching it!

this movie is less expensive for the plot is just one place.. in a seluded motel room..

the beginning was so intensely erotic for it was moaning and screaming due to compassionate love making - i, myself got even turn on! lolz!! but just that - a normal reaction of a normal being, isn't it?! tee - hee..

some people might find it boring and I did but i stick to it and half of the movie is erotic hot sex! oh boy!! heheh.. then in between of the movies, they talk and just friendly talk!

they are both strangers indulging a short minute happiness..

the girl is engage and will be married on following days and the guy has ex - gf that is a chalorie count addict..

they tried not to have a string attached but they can't handle it for the energy is strong and the girl refuse to know more about the guys personal stuff but the guy still insists of telling her.. and the story ends by the two complete stranger cuddling in each other's arms..

I learnd that no matter what the reason of all the things that happend in our lives, it is God's Faith that bring us together.. everything happend for a reason and whatever the reason behind it only God knows..

Just my own Opinion - I am not really good in commenting a movie but this is my very first try to express my thoughts..

now, i know why the title is "EN LA CAMA".. for a reason that the story evolves in bed and mostly in bed... heheh.. tee - hee!!

"9th of 2010 - My Life"

today is the 9th of the month 2010...

what happend to my day?!

well, I did woke the last ring of my alarm and hurriedly wash my face brush my teeth and put on my warm clothes and few mins later I was on the road paddling my bike on the cold freezing morning.. FYI before I proceed.. I change my shower time - it is on @ night so that I won't freeze to death more!!

30mins before I clocked in; I arrived the store and put my bike on the electrical room and went to break room to eat my breakfast that I bought with me..

time to clock in and i got busy with the usual morning routine and i was able to get a break and did give a break the cashier upfront..

few minutes before I clocked out, I help upfront and ring up customers..

one of the customer bought cigar and milk and he was with his wife and they confused me and I am not sure if they alreay paid the other item but I did felt something wasn't right and it was too late for they are gone.. after ringing up the last customer; I went back to the LAB and finish where I left then time for me to go and @ the back of my mind - was worried of what happend?! there is this thing that bugs me and I just kept it at the back of my head but unfortunately, it really boils up! dang it!! when this would end? when?!

I was riding my bike by then when I had a deep thought about it! I arrived home and call a friend but it goes to answering machine so i decided to call another friend there we chit chat about work and other stuffs and I was ok when I hanged up..

if sure nice to have someone to talk to when you feeling blue!!